Woke up depressed and anxious
Even tho the CT scan showed a cyst or abscess, still dealing with the ear and jaw pain from the dental injury, including facial tingling. Left eye feels weird. The dentist who shoved my jaw offered me to see a recommended endodontist to "save" the tooth. I said I'm moving forward with the hospitals oral surgeon, so I guess the whole tooth will be removed. Dentist said something about me having an implant, bone grafting, etc...I think I should talk to an actual oral surgeon at the hospital and tell them about my injury and pain, etc. Iow, there's more to this whole thing than just the bad tooth.
Not doing well today. Left eye feels weird. Feeling of dread that something bad is going to happen.
Cousins friend is visiting, so I won't even get a text asking how I am. Even tho she knows I'm in crisis. Ever have family that would always put friends before you, even if you're on your death bed? That's this shit that's going on here and I'm disgusted on top of this stress.
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But it doesn't surprise me at all that the oral surgeon would want those records so as to have the total picture. It sounds like they were doing their due diligence, which I think is a very good sign that they know what they're doing. I would take comfort in that, and if the dentist's office staff were rattled by it, that's their problem. 
Sorry you're still in pain for now. Do you know when you will be seeing the oral surgeon? (I can't recall if you mentioned that already, but I hope it's soon!)
Oral surgery is usually done under sedation, by the way, so you won't feel a thing when they're working on you, and you'll be taking painkillers and probably antibiotics afterward. Even though you're scared, I'm excited for you, because I think this is likely going to be the answer to what's been causing all your problems. 
I was raised by an original Southern Belle. Far more concerned with how other people thought about us than whether or not we were actually well. It was this attitude that led to her ignoring my blossoming mental health issues and to basically inform me that I was lazy and without focus. (This was while I was actively pursing my dream of being a successful performer. Long rehearsals and many performances. Helping build sets and other stuff. Sometimes I was at the theater for 24 hours straight working on things before having a rehearsal and then opening weekend. WHILE working a 'real' job to survive.
But, I was lazy.
Go do something that you like to do and celebrate the New Year with some nice tea or coffee (with Carolan's if you prefer.... that is what I am having! 
) Try to relax a bit tonight.