Disquiet

[jfz9580m]

My existence has been wretchedly chaotic in the last 14 years. I am wrapping up a research article I started 17 years ago. In this period, I got (amicably) divorced, moved back to my home country India from the US and lost my mother to cancer, which I have only recently gotten over. I am an only child and my mom and I were very close. It was a shock when we lost her.

As a result of the circumstances under which all this happened my mind has not been at rest. Anything I write is less about catharsis than explicitly political. Therefore, rather than to a therapist (an American concept I never quite took to), I thought I would start writing in this rather quiet forum on DU.

Political to me does not connote noisily spectacular. If anything, quite the reverse.
But writing out my side of things like Frankenstein’s monster (I saw the new movie recently - it was not too bad as such things go), in a measured way seems like a better plan at this point than attempting (and unsuccessfully) to repress all thoughts of the period from Sept 2011-the present.

I shall try that..

[jfz9580m]

1. Part 1: Parasitism and Profligacy not Legitimate Progress are the Enemies of Earth

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That is a snapshot of Ol’jfz9580m’s work desk I took yesterday for posting here.

I write these for myself alone.

I laugh at my own jokes so I have finally returned to my native state of if not solipsism, a state where a few lapses into vaguely menacing noises aside (an undertone throughout), “performing” for an audience of only one as is the norm for Ol’jfz9580m. That one being Ol’ jfz9580m. I must say I derive a certain satisfaction in the Biblical oratory style. A book mom and I loved, Georgette Heyer’s “Blunt Instrument” had a very funny character PC Glass, a rigid policeman who would speak in this manner.

It is an emergency. I would never willingly share these very private things. It would have confounded mom. But these are for the web and for EarlG/elad, as I could not have expressed myself alone. And I must as this is not a joke. I would hate to lose my anonymity because I would hate to lose my anonymity.

Going forward I shall refer to myself in third person as Ol’ jfz9580m in satirical non homage to Ol’ Orlick from Charles Dickens’ “Great Expectations”.

My mom and I used to find a particular line from the book very funny: “You was favored and Ol’ Orlick was bullied and beat”. You would have to read the book to get why it is absurd.

To quote P. G. Wodehouse, another favorite of my mom and I, “to make it clear to the meanest intelligence”, Ol’ Orlick was not a meek victim. He was some sort of dim-witted thug. Hence, clearly an affinity of Ol’jfz9580m.

I suppose much like Winston from 1984, I write these for a distant future I will never see. I have no descendants either, a couple of nieces I am very fond of aside. So Ol’jfz9580m has to communicate to the distant future about what life was like.

In that image, future human from 2568, in the corner you can see a sheet of 10 mg cetzine tablets, some tinsel that my 200 mg and 100 mg Modafinil tablets were wrapped in (I should clean my desk at some point), a cake of soap proving that I do have an understanding of hygiene whatever asparagus may be cast my way on that head possibly occasionally with some legitimacy (I have been preoccupied! There is a doctor who recommends never showering fwiw? No. Oh well..), and my medical marijuana prescription that contains both THC and CBD.

It is a nice snapshot of human existence in India in these troubled times as I owe the people whose produce of bonafide utility I relied on in this difficult time.

I am indebted to a small local pharmacy for these, since the local mental health services have been unhelpful or worse. They have been known to us for over 20 years and Modafinil is a safe enough medication that they do not insist on a prescription. My life would have been far harder without Modafinil.

I am very grateful to my ayurvedic doctor and my medical marijuana company for my marijuana presciption as well. It has helped me quit alcohol which I really should avoid given how much cancer there is in my family.

There is no data I am willing to share for medical or any research now or wrt the last 14.5 years. It was not always the case. It is today. I found out last week about Blackstone Inc and am preparing for conflict on all fronts.

The Texas cadaver scandal is one I noted with interest. Toronto shutting down Sidewalks Lab was also a relevant news story.

A third news story that is perhaps most relevant involves the Serum Institute of India throwing a draconian retaliatory lawsuit at a volunteer who dared complain and sue them for a modest sum of 5 lakhs. In a society with good critical thinking skills that would be construed by no one as an attack on vaccines, but rather on the type of human who thrives in this world as it accelerates to hell disregarding collateral damage and they bully and scam their way ahead. SIL filed a 100 crore lawsuit or something ridiculous as a form of serious intimidation. That is one side of India. A small but significant one.

And as someone who does not grasp notions like kayfabe, if I formally place criminal liability on the table for some things I have seen, it is neither insanity nor theatre. I have no use for theatre and I have seen more than enough.
One person is already dead - my mom. And I lost 14.5 years of my life. The only things in my life or those of anyone connected to me ever that could be used extortionately are depicted there. Tata keeps flashing 0000F5D7 on my screen and malicious scoundrels of the worst kinds -male and female have flooded my street between 2021 and the present as I grieved over the loss of my mom.

And as I push this scourge back, as someone who has no intention of spending even a day in prison and is not fool enough to risk such things, this is based on a serious pragmatic calculation.

I would not be writing this were it an ordinary situation. The rest of what I write is for a future I hope exists some day.

A parasitic private equity company called Blackstone Inc has been buying up some of the already fairly sleazy local hospitals since 2023. The doctors here are always good - physical health doctors anyway. My oncologist is a gem of a man. Overworked but then it is easier to overpopulate earth and force parasitic bullshit jobs offering no serious goods or services as a form of “GDP Growth”, than to train highly skilled doctors with expertise and experience.

My mom’s oncology nurse was also very competent (and overworked and as nurses typically are, underpaid). Blackstone Inc however does well. Hence, the title of the post.

As someone who will never work in anything but publicly funded science and is a complaint forced to use the web as a Citizen scientist would, I have no reason to lie and I will not any further. The last 14 years have taken a real toll on me and my family and friends and doctors and colleagues at various points.

The forces affecting our lives are hidden and indirect and chaos and confusion make it hard to identify precisely every culprit. But I do speculate about some.

For some reason I have had pastor Marian Budde in mind as I write this.

I am nominally Hindu, the doctor, the ceo of my medical marijuana company, my pharmacist at a small mom and pop local pharmacy, its owner etc are Hindu, Muslim, Christian etc.
They are all Indian men and very decent and kind men.

There are few Jewish people or Sikhs in these parts or I am sure they would have been an important part of my real life here as well.

As we say in these parts, “Hindu, Muslim, Sikh, Isai milkar Janagan gaate hain” (though I can’t remember offhand where that is from..Ol’jfz9580m has always had a lousy memory. Mainly thanks to never have trained attention and memory early on. Ol’ jfz9580m’s metacognition works somewhat differently than some people’s).

There are four books I purchased with poor grace from one of those ugly giants displayed there - each significant in its own way. I would have preferred a small bookseller, but those do not exist anymore online anyway.
As this mad rush for the most parasitic forms of growth prevails, that can be expected.

My residence however is very much my own as is the street outside and the sky above. We have lived on this piece of land for over a 150 years. That is not that long. But it is long enough.

The title of the post derives from one of the books pictured, Samuel Miller MacDonald’s “Progress”. It is a good book and I like Sam.

But I disagree with the problem he identified. Firstly it is never possible to identify one concept alone (as he has done) for such a mess. But were I to pick one, I would choose Adam Becker’s allusion to “the limits to growth” as closer. In the rest of this, I will make a simple set of rhetorical arguments based on genuine pragmatism for why I do not buy this and clarify (not that tacky Stanford optogenetics rubbish - those people are idiots) why I back my own worldview over this pointless drivel I was forced to endure.

Future human, except to the dumbest people anywhere, do I seem like someone who wants to do podcasts or educate etc? With rare exceptions, I have no idea what drives any of these guys and I have realized it is futile to try. The slender array of archetypes and stereotypes in use by such baffle me, left, right and centre. Btw I mostly just considered the web a way to waste time when stuck at work, with rare utilities off and on. Now I wonder if even those are worth it at this rate.

I have been plagued as most people are these days (whether they are aware or not - I was not 14 years ago) by something directly insidious.

While it is not any one thing, parasitism (with cruelty, bullying, misrepresentation, coercion, intimidation and slander as needed to support parasitism and by large crowds of truly endlessly clueless humans who to this day do not get it) is a far bigger issue than any in my own life as well as society broadly.
Earth and its animals who do not vote and are not cute companions have faced the brunt of this parasitism in 200 years of industrialization. That the euphemistically titles “ventilation shutdown” - a moral abomination that most veterinarians disgracefully back -refers to “efficient culling” of animals by burning them alive after factory farming them in cages too small to allow even the most meagre amounts of comfort tells one a lot about the zeitgeist of this society.

In such a landscape war and poverty are expected not surprising and sports style blame allotment and chess moves cannot change that. I feel rather Biblical these days..Not like a theocrat. But as a human who cannot conceal their disapproval any further or indulge in meaningless twaddle and drivel.

I have no positive things to say of my state however. This is shameless all around.

To be continued..

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2. Part 2: Ol' jfz9580m goes on the Rampage

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I want to be clear on something here. This was hell and torture. It made me unemployable by forcing something worthless. Whatever it is, I will not allow it and you will figure out how to decouple me from this and I will not pull back even one complaint. Not even if Yasha Levine said I should.
You are not a child. You all knew what you were doing. I already have had to forgive two super annoying labs in the US.

I know she was old and past her sell by date, but I was fond of my mom.

It is not a good idea to encourage economies like these. It is not that I am sneering at influencing etc.
14 years after I first told these people I want nothing to do with this, nothing has changed my mind and to me my mom was as important as other people’s families are to them.

This was so parasitic and somehow I am less sympathetic to women who participated in this. I cannot tell with this dim-witted male contingent how these assholes think.
I am not flexing muscle as a joke.

I am going to the police and if I didn’t you would bully me and after having been tortured by this, next I would..lol..be one of these assholes that is next going to shill this?

No and I am a terrible liar. And I am not crazy. This was greed, malpractice and stupidity. At any point between 2011 and now you could have not gone around saying I am a bot and crazy.

As is I am working overtime to soothe this in ways that will only affect those who should do hard time for this.
I cannot huge we thing. You are welcome to pit your million people mob or not.

You can save yourselves or continue with histrionics about team work and cooperation and no. Don’t try to tell me this was not torture and exploitation with no use case.

If..if I could cover for you, I would. I cannot. I had to keep roleplaying this dumbass woman to not pretend that this was sleazy, creepy..

This is not how humans think. It is not relevant what your face is like (that ass Kosinski), what noisy sledgehammers you use, what emojis, fart sprays, these disgraceful lie and emotion detectors like that Aaron Elkins and

I cannot do anything about people who become suicidal etc after doing all this. Don’t do all this. Unemployment is better than participation in something that is undemocratic and where you had to know..

I know how women who are not sleazy or stupid think and well okay if you are married to one of these male zealots shilling this trash.
Okay I will admit it..My last mentor’s wife was the only woman in this I had any sympathy for. Maybe she buys into this trash too..good god.

But this is blind zealotry.

Here is what I am saying. It is not all that bullshit that woman Haugen etc shill.

Look Yan Lecun would never look me in the eye and say that for most people, with the kind of education common everywhere, except maybe in Germany (that is in this instance not a Nazi reference

If you are a pot using guy, different deal from being some girlboss mom who calls everyone an addict after barging into their spaces.
Yes data should be treated as the Texas Cadaver scandal.

I am not a luddite. Except the destruction of information and muddying with deepfakes etc sold as metaphoric vaccine to cover the rears of these creeps into infinity..
There is no “we”. There is using pot when you don’t even drive and there is pretending to care.
I harm reduce. I don’t need the validation of people who are this dishonest, pettily clerical and

Look you will figure it out. But I refuse to be scapegoated if you suffer the consequences of your own actions. We all do and my time is up and I never did anything this cruel and shitty and there is a time..
You may lose your job. If this goes on you will go to prison.
I cannot help it that you are sleazy and unsympathetic.. That is karma.

I can only vouch for people I trust and engaged with. This sort of collectivism is the cancer.
I would be giving you bad intel if I dialed this down and as Matt Stoller put it ignore human nature.

I have been in this parasitic hell for 14 years. The way to pushback against polemicists and bad actors is not by justifying and continuing to force this.

It will keep going lower and lower and more and more desperate. You had no reason to shill all this.

The actual real labor nor recreation I sign up for or enjoy works with this.
So I am going to the police..the shit on my street was the last straw.

I am not going to extort or go and suck up. I don’t talk to the people in this and I won’t. It is not my problem. But for the few people or things I do care about I extend olive branches to people who were never a part of this and not the types to perpetuate this.

The gist is human labor is slowed and worsened for a collection of worthless buggy tech and nonexistent products and services.

I kept incriminating myself as a lousy scientist in this. You know why? Because I am a lousy scientist and it is not to impress you with my humility etc. YOU CANNOT NEGOTIATE AROUND REALITY.

I took and take my lumps and so can I. And don’t bullshit to me about these trashy “studies”.

I will finish my write up coldly and deliberately and log off for a long time. I don’t want to push it with EarlG and elad, who I am grateful to for being trustworthy enough to engage with.

I can’t do this anymore. Fortunately no one I really care about is anything but skeptical about this shit and that is why I care about them.

Edit: There is exactly one exception to this since this is about informed consent. There was one male scientist I met at my last job in this super annoying and awful lab. He was the only person I met in that place, who like Yasha Levine, had some genuine natural talent and instinct for these sciences that was at all legitimate. But that is a strict one off and these creepy and local or online knockoffs can suck it. That is a one off, because he wasn’t stupid and corrupt like all the rest. Everything else, especially locally is pure misconduct and malpractice.

[jfz9580m]

3. Part 3: The Important Part

The most important part of this for future records is that I am (as formally as one can in this medium), recording that I will unambiguously file allegations of: 1) medical malpractice and scientific misconduct in human subject research for at least the period from Sept 2011- the present and going forward against a) my former employer/the Hospital there/Google; b) the city and the state at the time; c) every hospital, tech company (Tata for one/SBI card) or other institution in India that exploited my home/devices and me in this period; d) criminal harassment allegations against all the humans who used my street between 2021-the present/going forward and any accessories/bystanders/data scientists and researchers; e) my present city/state/anyone involved at the centre.

If my alma mater and first postdoctoral school were involved, with the exception of my mentors/a colleague at the NIH (who is nothing like this and like my mentors not at all this creepy, exploitative type of scammer), at the very least they should be rebuked for such graceless, greedy and above all..this is the part that grates on me the most..brainless behavior.

No one seriously believes that you are motivated by safety and health concerns about addiction/mental illness, when you classlessly jump into bed with data miners, ai companies, sleazy and parasitic mobs/swarms/vacant internet sleuths (this is not democritization of a goddamn thing - these people have no self awareness and no life. I used to have a life. Hell is these people.)

I apologize for this next part as it sounds ott. Though it was true. I will be alleging that, I was stalked, bullied, extorted and harassed using the narcotics war and kept out of the loop for refusing to cooperate with this exploitative race to the bottom immigration strategy that treats the NIH postdoc like slave labor and sweatshop work. It was and is psychological torture and a serious human rights violation and theft.
I never had any mental issue that was not directly caused by this breathtakingly stupid enterprise.

It is different that I have a type of fennel weed like mercurial resilience (which I discovered thanks to this daft shit! I hate victimhood. Otoh these people are punishingly stupid. I have wished for Steve Chu or Yan Lecun..I can probably even survive evil. These guys are not evil. They are really stupid).

I have had to reinvent myself as Ol’jfz9580m in some sort of reaction since it seems to mirror the Ol’Orlick level of brainpower that must be the norm in this astonishingly stupid crew.

I imagine them as a combination of two of the most repellant characters in “Great Expectations” -Ms.Joe and Ol’Orlick, but somehow also sleazy, creepy, tacky, cloying and nauseating, which in fairness no one could say about Ms Joe/Ol’ Orlick, who were better than these guys.

I do not have a not absurd or not mocking reaction to these dunderheads. The script that they launched requires a woman to be this annoying cliche in response to these mindnumbingly stupid people.

Like see..kayfabe works when a sleazebag joins this choreographed (and daft) thing and except mockery, after finally exiting this hellish headspace yesterday, I don’t have a serious response to this totally self-serving, creepy and sleazy dance. You really disgraced yourselves.

And worst of all I reflexively used these dumb internet grievance scripts when my main grievance is that all these people are really stupid and apparently no one informed them of this glaringly obvious fact. And they might need that info to at least work out who to and how to sell these totally lame scams.

I am very grateful to my medical mj co and small pharmacy for having been the only truly useful help. I will be alleging that these methods are horrifyingly stupid and should be nominated for the Ignobel before being defunded and taken to the police etc.

It should be considered especially vile when moral abominations like mass incarceration and the failed drug war are exploited anew by these shady and unscrupulous groups to pitch this criminal trash as “prison reform”, “mental healthcare”, a metaphoric “vaccine”, “traffic studies” etc. The information must nit

As of this date I have not yet formally escalated it to criminal malpractice and criminal misconduct, but I don’t rule it out.

The sheer exploitative, sexist and above all stupid (this is the part that gives me hope) nature of it kills brain cells.

MysI am still formulating a response for real. I kind of recovered in stages. And well it is a very unfortunately unpleasant conflict, but it is not personal. But almost all these guys are a genuine threat to the public and shockingly masquerading as responsible.

This is why rather than an ever larger jury and etc of these fucking idiots (man the cloying rot I was regurgitating outside of my life decoupled from these scammy, corrupt brainless guys..)

I don’t get offended easily. But this was offensively stupid.

The following people are exempt from complaints I file: My last mentor/lab/the pd counselor/my external shrink and therapist/ the first and last families I rented space from and, this one male scientist (who whatever his shortcomings, was not stupid at all and in this crowd of dimwits that stands out..as stupidity is what I will always remember. It is not even a very competent scam. It is a cliche they put no thought into. Instead of the nightmarishly stupid cs and google crowd, ask Steve Chu to say with a straight face that these creeps care about health and that their mapping, music and traffic studies are not depressingly daft..I would wager half my savings he would agree it is stupid and scammy. These are daft people.)

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4. Part 4: Greed and Excessive Ambition Make Humans Mindnumbingly Stupid

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(These posts are a work in progress. I formally request MIRT/EarlG/elad to alert on or delete any that cross any lines and I will try to figure out which specific piece of hateful, kooky, extremism was an issue. I am throwing every tool I have at this now. Sadly writing is easier at the moment than work or a healthy lifestyle. I am serious about this. So now I must move fast to finish my paper, complete writing and start the process of complaint initiation with as much pushback as was warranted given how horrific this was. I am at least still alive to tell how fraudulent safety/mental health concerns imperiled me).

I have pondered with disgust and some fascination this entire collection of greedy, self-serving, solipsistic narcissistic candidates for the Darwin Awards going back to 2011.

It was late in the September or early October of 2011 that I realized that what I had assumed was a routine and respectable job was instead the exact type of sleazy bullshit I have avoided all my life and filled with the types of Indians, Americans, men and women I would take a plane, train, boat, bicycle, bullock cart etc to get as far away from as possible.

Nobody has to even be particularly cynical to see that these people don’t care about prison reform, mental health, open science, dreamers or undocumented immigrants. They do not have Christian or humanitarian concerns. They care about one thing and only one thing. Their own professional and personal advancement at any cost to other humans, the planet, civil society, democracy, science and medicine.

It is complete bullshit to be a clearly mediocre shrink who uses their perch at some ghastly spook hell (just a hypothetical) to shill sobriety propaganda with a muscularly mercenary agenda exploiting Reefer madness driven prejudices to force VR and garbage therapies while assiduously fellating (if you will pardon my contemptuous vulgarity - I am a poet! Artistic license!) data mining giants, defense contractors, assorted scummy surveillance capitalists and private equity giants who would make the “scurrying little men” from 1984 look like noble, upstanding citizens.

Actually, I should not suggest that those people copiously gratify these miserable mordern day mobsters. What would my mother say? Seeing as she is dead I cannot know. She would probably be shocked at the language and ask me to refrain from posting such things online.
I alarmed my poor mother sometimes. You see I take after my dad as well, something I tried to repress throughout. However, it fits the needs of the hour.

Hold on, I have to go and look up what constitutes libel and defamation legally. Poor EarlG and elad. I just got my first post removed in 19 years and 8 months on DU last week for “Hateful, Kooky and Extremist Content”.
In fairness, a totally valid description of Ol’jfz9580m’s content.

I was highly amused by that. Man I hope I am not annoying the hell out of EarlG and elad. I am not a loose cannon. I actually felt sorry for my last mentor and even more so his wife, a decent woman who reminded me a little of my own mother, who was also a hard scientist who liked literature.
Believe it or not, these profanity and veiled aspersions filled bouts of lyrical prose are actually a statement of support for them. It is also a statement of support for EarlG and elad, whose forum I use where I could never have a creepy little Facebook account, a blogspot (Google), wordpress (some guy who owns it..wait..let me go and look up what constitutes libel).
As I spit on my hands and get down to an important task I have delayed for 14 years, 7 months and around 3 days to be precise (precision rants! To match precision medicine!), it would be wise to have an idea of what constitutes libel and defamation.

Okay so these definitions of libel, slander and defamation are totally shackling and unfair.

Free speech! So much for wanting to be inclusive of people and such. What about my right to with lots of justification malign the professional integrit

I am the little guy! I mean I actually totally am!
I am trying to be supportive here for real. There is no way, a person of above average intelligence would believe me (I am generally a MeToo supporter, but I always found their language..unrelatable) if I tried to reivent myself as a woman who says various insipid things. The first feminist book I was ever enthusiastic about was Valerie Solanas’ “Scum Manifesto”.
There is a broader point here of what happens when the left is forced to use language that has been carefully curated by managerial
consultants, litigation obsessed lawyers and sundry bad actors.

The so-called social justice movements of the last 15 years have lead to a noxious form of dialogue with neat boundaries about whom to attack and how that is no doubt very lucrative, but it is heartless, callous, gutless, witless trash.

It is not feminist or egalitarian to spend all your time policing language and existing in state of perpetual offence while defanging the people who might say things (at the risk of libel) such as “those corrupt and mediocre dick-suckers and dicks of Google, Facebook etc are engaged in a shocking

I have grudgingly decided to pullback complaints against Substack since pretty much everyone whose work I respect writes over there.

Hi Dave (EarlG), please email me if I am becoming too much of a nuisance and I will dial it down. I was being satirical about free speech. I am not actually irresponsible.

I intend these for the open web, obscuring only personal details. I am filing a criminal case myself here in India* and I am not enthusiast of the web. But as a hedge strategy (as distinct from a sleazy hedge fund)

But as Ed Zitron said about Dudesy, what distinguishes these rants from something a pathetic ai, data mining, cryptography or lame orchestration racket (not that such things exist! That would be wildly paranoid! And fodder for those grotesque agents that man - in an act of supreme restraint I shall stop calumning stray bloggers however contemptuous I am of conniving humblebrags that shill subpar ai by feigning alarm over drivel- who


For me anyway.



I am not sure that for instance saying: “those insipid, mediocre parasites at Google and Facebook have never had any talent that did not come from theft at scale

*: I lost my mom. This isn’t a joke and none of it is ai or bullshit. I have no mental illness and I am responsible. That is why I am filing a criminal case. It is about negligence and deregulation at scale. This was torture. But it would be impossible for me to represent myself as entirely sane and awake throughout this nauseating experience. And as many of my targets are not the usual suspects (don’t get excited you meninists. This is about being hounded out of the left and feminist areas when rather than regurgitating a pale immitation of someone else’s ideas and experiences, that before ai, was done by the kinds of humans these societies have for very long feted while covering their own tracks wrt their own indebtedness to

I do not know what a disaffected white or any male who is not a creep is like. But I do know what disaffected feminists - a term I am reclaiming as women’s libber is more typing. Efficiency!-are like.
I have only one voice in my head and its my own and I attribute to all real human influences and consider ai a joke.

I have not been myself for a long time. I realized on Friday that what makes me seem a little off is trying to roleplay this irresponsible woman who makes peace with this entire slew of people I cannot excoriate adequately. They can go to Yasha Levine or my mentor’s wife and if they get 100% approval from both of them I will pull back my complaints.
As is I have forgiven and tolerated two intensely annoying labs in which save for one male scientist whose judgement I question in both working in that hell and befriending me (that didn’t last long),

This is not about capitalism or any ism. It is about common sense, honesty and not lying to yourself all the time.
I am dubious about these things I do. I doubt that my mentor’s wife, the one woman in this I would trust and take cues from, would approve. But she is white and in another country and a legitimate honest elite.
I cannot compliment people except inadvertently. Because I have never had a bullshit job or lived in a real dictatorship.
This isn’t a dictatorship.

This is exactly where some small amount of actual intellectual or academic or hard science muscle is coupled with a catastrophically stupid set of sleazy strategies.

Survival of the fittest as a mobster, robber baron or a voluntarily prostitute sees it is not survival.
The only time I pull back anything is when it might endanger the few businesses I engage with.
I bore the brunt of the risk in this.

And yes clearly Ol’jfz9580m is a oppressed and mild woman, because or else, these absolutely corrupt women and men would represent me as a bullying thug myself.
I cannot excoriate what passes for left or liberal or feminist these days enough.
It is just mobbing, but in a different way.

I do not bully people. But I cannot go around saying everything is white or male supremacy. Where it is those people are so voiceless, they are not online meting out clapbacks and getting hearts and likes.
I would be upset and disappointed if I ever evoked any response beyond “gulp..ummmm..”.

And that is not internet toughness. I am so disappointed in all of you. You are a joke of a species.

I am not angry with you. I did think you were too brainwashed to even talk to honestly. But if I had to, I would say that you sit around faking concern online (brainlessly more than maliciously) but I don’t buy you. You are bullies.
Your power comes from other people or actual wealth and power.

Mine comes from a monstrous experience that was and remains torture every day. This is not the life I wanted.
But if this had to happen, I owe you as a society, a paper, unvarnished feedback and a criminal case establishing a legal precedent.
This was no less monstrous than Theranos.
But the risk was distributed and I shall find all the culprits.

I use the pen - the common woman’s tool and rely on EarlG’s graciousness. Whatever I say about all these companies or people, I am not so solipsistic that I would make idiotic purity demands during such a uncertain and insane time.
Hell..I have made some feeble and unconvincing attempts to theoretically placate Shyam Sankar, Josh Hawley and Stepfanie Tyler - an odd assortment of presumably conservative people who..lol..

If I didn’t have a sense of humor, I would be dead. It was the TikTok ban wrt Hawley. That thing really should be banned. I am not violating DU’s TOS. I would be a malicious bot if I thought in my specific position weighing in on American politics was not the type of thing that is truly ill-advised.

Besides most things I say are truthy and satirical and it would be ill-advised to take them at face value (except as in Part 3 I laid out what I will allege and file at least in India and in the last state I worked in). Do you think I do this for a job? It is not about being stuffy. But that would be so depressing. If a woman like me was desperate enough to do something that uncharacteristic. That would be a warning sign that no alarm bells are left.


Billionaire outreach! Not really. But I didn’t shed a tear for Gawker. I wish it had taken that foul Jezebel with it. Celebrity gossip and bullshit “feminism” that allows those brainless meninists like Peter Thiel (is that libel? I mean yes he does sound pretty stupid, but clearly you cannot actually exist without a brain. So that is a euphemism).

Now, I like the venerable Fox News, do my best to be fair and balanced with our sleazy billionaire class. Otoh my balance here is skewed due to the reality that this was not an explicitly conservative male driven thing, but the result of what I consider a genuine mindless cancer on the left.

Now yes, I was mildly nauseated to see a fraudulent “eclectic” mix of that person Yoshua Bengio (damn libel laws), Steve Bannon, the disgraceful Ralph Nader (I knew some Naderites in grad school - totally self centred, attention seeking morons. They were not voting their conscience. They did not live in a war zone and find themselves unable to not feel hurt. But they did like to view themselves as …they were well-heeled, contemptuous of other humans and not people I remember with any affection or respect. Ol’ jfz9580m has a brutal worldview she was trying to mask. I think I am a failure and a disappointment. Why would I like people with even less self-awareness who had far more resources invested in them than I ever did. Mine have been poached and parasitized).
Honesty is the only way out. I have no delusions of grandeur but these guys do.

I would throw even Elon Musk a bone - one of the bones Ol’jfz9580m is notoriously stingy with and say that it was a failure of msm that covered up some scandals involving sexual violence against and grooming of women. But I am not a beagle or a Thai boy in a cave.
This is the real world. My being online is a sign that things are as broken as it can get.
But Musk does try to shutdown small left wing outfits and I would rather EarlG banned me outright than risk that. That is the closest I have ever come to transactionalism.
I may need reputation management after this. Musk and DOGE are awful. My parents were public servants and I was shocked at the treatment I saw of federal workers.

But these street mapping and other projects where our corrupt communist govt has conducted them are vile harassment. And generalities and specifics are different. I have no compunction for any of the people involved.

But when these people (who are grifters who would be disliked by most everyone who knew them) are self destructing, it would be foolish to pile on and hobble Ol’jfz9580m where whether you are the home team or across the aisle, Ol’jfz9580m is engaged in pest control and tumor degrowth. This is not healthy growth.
But Ol’ jfz9580m is no one’s fool and never a bully, though a mawali, whatever that is..some kind of thug I think. These guys are creeps and attention seeking brainless parasites.
I shall find them all and press charges and file malpractice and misconduct allegations as well as report any scammers who tried to use this to game their way ahead.

This is a situation like Theranos where there is no left-right angle and yes a legal precedent checking this must come out of 14.5 years of psychological torture that left one person dead.
The utility of my resilience is not to enable this and I am no fan of Ayman Al Hirsi. I can see all sided stupidity without being like grifters like Musa Al Gharbi and bought and paid for faux contrarians.

This society has enough trash labeled left or right that is grift and focusing on that is more important than pursuing ideological goals or continuing to self promote (just from a new cult..I am angry because this was dishonest, grifty and corrupt and I learnt and an exiting now as it will get worse. But this happened and that is why we are here).
I have expended all my policing instincts on self-policing while this vile trash proliferated all around me. I tried to buy into these endlessly sleazy and nauseating both sided garbage things. And I finally realized, my mom’s death was because of this.
It is unfortunate this is on the web. It will confuse your brain into thinking it is kayfabe/a game/a show/ if you are really stupid, madness or a growth or sleazy cottage industry opportunity. I understand this perfectly.
I did from the start. And I am no longer cowed by that hardcore bullshit.

But this is a communist state filled with Private Equity giant bought hospitals that no one left or right would sympathize with.
Let Ol’jfz9580m avenge herself! Legally and non violently. My brain could not process this as I am very averse to histrionics.

As those various brainless girlbosses (specifically that sleazebag Wynn-Williams - I don’t think that is libel and in a kind of twisted compliment, she at least would have the sense to not make herself ridiculous by suing me) would say, I am mission-focused! These platforms are a cancer. They make a stupid society even stupider and set off a fraudulent cottage industry of bullshit tech criticism. I do this for free!

My ex says it is a bad idea to give me ideas like the Bill Maher v President Trump thing. Speaking of which I wonder if after all this Yasha Levine would be Orwell to my Wodehouse knockoff in hell. I totally exploit Yasha for left wing cred and reputation management. The only kind that (like true hard science cred) ever strained me.

Yasha will last the test of time. He cares. I love Yasha. If I had had a brother, he would have been annoying. But if I could have had one I chose, it would be Yasha.

You and your family always have a home here with me in India Yasha..though I hope it never comes to that. Should I sign up for that foul Substack again? That thing sucked away so much money. I am not gullible and this lame experiment was so easy to see through and such a joke. But I do like supporting Yasha and Chris Ketcham. I shall make a list of the only people whose work I support and all forms of conflict are on the table wrt abyone else.

This is not the wild or UFC. After I saw at a heavy dose and sped up what the reality is of these trashy and worthless non industries (I had a real job..I know what real work. I know what real activism are. Those are bullshit jobs. After all this, if this trash is normalized exceot for that pathetic venture capital crowd out of ca, this society is doomed and that is okay. But it won’t take Ol’jfz9580m with it).

And hopefully the real left (Yasha/Ketcham) like me is savvy enough to decipher this pathetic form of communication and see this information stream and these games for what they are since humans unlike bots have an understanding of these ugly minds across the board. These are ugly people. On the inside at least.

Critical thinking has been on the wane. I just find it depressing when so called left of centre people embrace those platforms or trot out that ass Haidt’s (that’s not libel! And he is in the Epstein files at least according to the version of Wikipedia I see. At the very least that justifies the label “ass”) bullshit.

I find these libel laws shackling..

Seriously though, BTS these guys are less crazy than they seem. And it is adequately clear now this is not in my head. I don’t work in groups and it is time for draconian pushback but I would have to do it.
I have never been in these things.

And I have changed. Not because of this. I attributed every real influence and they were all low tech and from books I read etc. Ed Zitron and Nathan Robinson are the only people I have only followed online.
I usually take things at face value. I don’t think 5G kills birds, but conspiratorial rot helps these sleazy, mainstream in hell gatekeepers (you will all be judged by history for what you are doing today and what you have done. Pot and now libel 🙄 laws aside, I am not worried.
I was worried. i was very worried: Now I am not.
But don’t come to me with a sobstory and don’t try to bully me again. As you sow, so shall you reap.

And don’t keep hobbling me wrt information flow either. It won’t serve you.

I told you the only response going forward..”…”.
You can gossip among yourselves. I am used to it. Ignored it all my life. I don’t even have anything lurid.
I have no interest in sex or men. It is useful in this situation as it helps to hone this:

I never understood people. They all seem so stupid except I guess Steve Chu, Yan Lecun and my mentor/2 friends in the hard sciences and Yasha/Ketcham/Nikiforuk/this one girl from my main lab..and a few others.
Idiocracy it is..

[jfz9580m]

5. Part 5: Ol'jfz9580m has never been this Human

Ol’jfz9580m is now resigned to writing as a part of her duties as a (frigid) straight cis-woman. Is there any other overshare required here? Ol’jfz9580m thought most women were tbh and like my mom solitary breeders upto 1-2 kids plus a job.

But Ol’jfz9580m doesn’t lie and taking a cue from the last 14.5 years will out every piddling embarassing thing, to buffer herself in court.
I am filing a criminal lawsuit about the last 14?years in my state. And all necessary malpractice and misconduct allegations.

Indian behavior patterns eh..I recently read about someone local I took an instant liking to.
So many Indians one comes across (aside from the nice locals..Ol’jfz9580m really likes all the people who come to Ol’jfz9580m’s house by invitation. That is not many people. Mostly people we require for delivery services, my pharmacy helper who is very cool, electrical services etc. It is the people who drove down the street..I have forgiven “s****u* from _ Nagar. I got the allusion as a one off.

I generally protest how information flows through this. But as one-offs and in rare specific instances I shall permit this Frankenstein’s Monster to be aborted without causing needless ubiquitous diarrhoea. That is not local. Locally there is no compromise on the table except with the parts of India that I am originally from. This will not be a thing.

It is friendly and cooperative and btw it is totally shameless (a few of you in between should be ashamed of yourselves for reading Ol’jfz9580m, a person with a lot of mystique who is not at all a clunky and mechanical thinker!) I protest that description because it was very accurate and now I know the source of the non-scammy accuracy in this.
Nothing! I am elegant!

Wtf? I had no idea this sort of bullshit even existed. And don’t get all snooty. You don’t know the life I lead. You never had to deal with this much stupidity with these stale left and feminist scripts which are why we are here.
I always hated them. They are so clunky. And combined with Ol’jfz9580m’s organic clunkiness it was so painful.
These people are all idiots and those wags who quite possibly filtered through whatever a chapotraphouse etc are should remember Harjinder Singh.
I will only allow it where I allow it.

You see, I am a zealot as well. Not about idiotic things and what are possibly the worst jokes- they are also a redflag! A different kind.
This is useful for the Yasha Levine/Evgenia Kovda type of actually feasible art. They would not be stupid enough anymore than I ever was to be exploited.
And I do not take one criminal lawsuit threat off the table as that would be the end of the most respectable parts of the Indian middleclass to which I belong.

Do you understand?
But Ol’jfz9580m is filing a case against every creep and sleazebag who knowingly walked and drove down this street.

The Google traffic

I am grateful to whoever finally worked out that Ol’jfz9580m is not someone to mess with.
I was prostrate by grief. This will not ever be a product or movie. Historians are as far as I shall unbend.

Do you know why? Because this was one of the legitimately worst things I ever saw spelling the end of everything worthwhile as we know it.

There is no need to find it blood chilling how Ol’jfz9580m views men who sexually or otherwise harassed her. This is not a movie.

Ol’jfz9580m is not a Final Girl. What global society is it if these parasitic and worthless memes and stale jokes from another country recycled pathetically locally become a thing. Have some pride in your country man. Or even more grotesquely and sleazily woman.
I am not a nationalist. But I am a proud Indian.

I was not. But I am now. For various reasons you need not know tied to what I consider stupid (about 90% of the “entrepreneurs” outside tech and a 100% in tech. Oh suck it up).

And I am a feminist. Beyonce and Taylor Swift shall not steal that label from me and my mom and my nieces. It is a misunderstood word.

I shall post all my loathing of the so called left media culture after this because it is not a joke when you don’t use your brain and then gloss over it. It is not terminal if you can change.

I earned the right to these screeds. But that is not why I post them. Ol’jfz9580m sometimes looks at a situation and notes redflags. It isn’t offence or trauma or tough sassy sense.
These things could come back and bite Ol’jfz9580m’s life in the real world, the only place Ol’jfz9580m can exist as an actual human female (really shitty) scientist in her field.
Having to combat these loathesome algorithms and bots and all the very human thought out there that is a disgrace to the human ability to think taught Ol’jfz9580m many bitter lessons. Your collective stupidity, avarice and lame trend chasing and faux austerity plus real low quality destroyed Ol’jfz9580m.

My mom is gone. I an buffering myself against the anger, shock and grief the details will bring. There are forgivable errors and unforgivable ones. You were entrapped if you participated in this after Dec 2011 and not the way I have seen people who where they are confused, alarmed and angry at first..and then they start adapting.

I am pulling the plug on this with the criminal lawsuit that is needed. If you do not even gain from this and you won’t without my explicit consent and permission (I am not expressing any of you you idiots..I see the pile of rot thrown at me ..this is torturing the data..except I am not data).
Back to Tejas Thackeray. I liked him. That is the India I am a part of and they are not easy people. Not because they are kayfabing, bloviating “nationalists” who sell out their own country to Reliance/Tata/Bollywood/Mollywood/Sports trash/Edtech/Facebook/Google/Microsoft/the most corrupt parts of the local state and the centre/Pegasus/the NSO group/Alex Pentland etc.
And I despise the Indian left and avoid the Indian right. I am on the left. I know what left is especially when you have to non robotically factor it in..

Btw a note to some people I will want a word with about this cut and paste etc 😤. Terrible.
I am not hard to communicate with. I am impossible to communicate with.

There is no way I could have pulled off ..I see physicists who would be a good fit for real world models of ai. Adam Becker, Chet Miller..at my most mechanical in 2024 I was drearily gaping at Chet Miller on Physics Stack Exchange and dully thinking mangling Nicholas Carr’s human brain’s actual way of thinking by thinking..”I should give up if I cannot have a classical education” like Miller.

I will never migrate anywhere except visit for work and always return because I do love the parts of India I am from. And there I can exert real leftist muscle as exactly who I am-a middleclass Indian female scientist who is not at all tough and no nonsense and does enough pot to sink a ship or two, but does not suffer fools. Because alcohol is at least worth the dreary buzz..such a lame buzz. Pot is better for you and better. Fuck this anti-pot shit.

I don’t need libel online when I am filing the harshest possible malpractice and misconduct allegations I can against my former employer.
But there is good news!

For the two extremely annoying labs I was in.
I was adjacent to a lab whose pi seemed like an honest scientist..(🤮 ..this might well be love or a facsimile anyway. I could not stand that guy, but I wish these two pis (a male and a female who are cool) well and ..See what I do for you? That guy struck me as the type of person who both reads The Atlantic and even worse The Jacobin non-ironically and worst of all is a secret admirer of Elon Musk.
I never got the original democratic enthusias for Musk. But I can throw him and some others a bone provided it is not misused. Because at the point I will take them back.
Trying to mess with Ol’jfz9580m.

No I always saw through Musk and I don’t say things like that greasy Burnham guy I will need PR from Yasha Levine and EarlG for to ever be trusted again by the real left I depended on for insights and which should not be perverted by this really bad local shit.

Tejas is correct. Everything in nature and the best human systems works together and it is evolution. My attention is such shit I can barely follow more than a snatch (fuck off..Ol’jfz9580m has a friend who is really funny. That was a very funny piece from

Don’t lose your shirt over this swamp. I cannot see it becoming a lake and it is not worth it.
Its utility is complaints. I will have support.

It not this nonsense from Substack-an execrable thing that is advised to retreat. These things are all a cancer and they can be a cancer away from me or the precious bones I have to hand out to the disaffected and whiny..

Seriously..You code and you thought you could take on Ol’jfz9580m who has millions of years of evolution and a protective allele against schizophrenia that was severely challenged by this worthless trash?
But I saw a doctor - a cancer survivor years ago.

Yes I use my imagination but in my pal Stepfanie Tyler’s defense (whoever is using that site owes that poor woman if it is not these scammers. Or pseudo clever ones and I post under EarlG/elad and Mirt’s guidelines and..don’t try any cute shit on this end or that one).

I am not embarassed at using human imagination since this is an emergency if these guys cannot be caught and brought to justice and this aborted, condemned etc.

I fully support my mentor and take a leap of faith on those two scientists working for that annoying Elon Musk fan type. His kids are cute though and..my dad ..well okay my dad is nothing like this. But foreign countries are hard.

An honest conversation about immigration would not sound like this “Immigrants make America Great!”
Immigration is hard and dangerous even when legal and high-skilled when the worst goddamn corporations and spooks took learnt from the plot against FDR that was foiled and slowly took over your country making a joke of democracy and pitting you against each other and attacking or confusing anyone who objects.
Today I have not Marian Budde in my head but Stephen S Hall who I will forever associate with pest control services by Sen Hawley against TikTok. But it was my best friend’s voice in my head.
I am very fond of my two best friends..my ex husband and my best friend I had a crush on and would follow around insisting he should go out with me. He declined that, but we became best friends. He is married to another extremely respectable female scientist and I try not to think about them.

I am not offering you bones out of fear. What sustainability would be there in a democracy like that? But I can no longer hide how much I despise a lot of so called left discourse

And I shall explain why and that is sustainable for me and honest industry and honest public sector. It is not sustainable when you are stupid.

It is even more egregious to try to use this perverted ai bullshit for general intelligence. Yan Lecun is correct. Demi Hassabis is an idiot and a good fit for Google (is that libel?)
It will be funny if in the end it Swifties who finally dox me not the meninists and it is libel laws not marijuana laws.
I hate talking! All my troubles were because I was goaded or could never pull off Pulp Fiction’s comfortable silence as somehow despite the proverb “better be silent and taken for a fool, than speak and remove all doubt” the yawning silence between one and other people..

But that one doctor should help these idiots whom I am not filing complaints against. He should pull a Warren Hern. I never even talked to him and it isn’t the gross crap. He looked interesting likr Andy Nikiforuk or Joe Bageant.
I don’t really go up to and talk to people. But I am interested in people where there is zero possibility of: 1) being groped (zero tolerance) and 2) mindnumbing stupidity. The two are connected.
What I saw prior to 2011 merely looked very annoying but harmless and clueless more than greedy or malicious.
Just bad instincts wrt science.

Google is just a trashy advertiser that buys stuff up - I don’t even know if they have any hardware or cybersecurity (which sans endless bullshit white hatting) is the sole area of CS other than the most plain fare computer or phone crap I consider useful.
This will be destroyed and reported.
My brain works better without phones or internet. I won’t be easy to find after this and anyone who claims this was them is lying.

Only those who need to find me will and I will need copious explanations and permits and oversight etc and I don’t want your money or your pathetic loans or pages or radio. I need my properties to be under my control.

I am not a girlboss. I am probably like my dad’s grandma. She was a matriarch. She had only one kid..very rare for the time. And she doesn’t sound like someone who suffered fools.

Don’t steal and be an idiot. It annoys people. I liked..Oh yeah..loaves and fishes.
The high point of Ol’jfz9580m’s chequered career was not breaking a shared use instrument in 2010.
The Ol’jfz9580m’s instrument, her brain, broke under the strain and it was not innate or anything. It was this worthless trash/

I hate phones. Why the fuck would I want to hear from people, this totally bulshit use case aside that has limited acceptability only because it will be coupled with a draconian criminal law suit I file:

This is not a game world. This is the residence of an Indian Navy Veteran who doesn’t bullshit about serious things. You are lucky to deal with me and not my dad.
Well you are not. But either way, this isn’t a edtech sweatshop or a bad joke factory or ai in the wild. This is not the wild. It is a residential area.
This better be clear. My mom was very kind. Look what happened to her. My dad is a martinet and that is appropriate for this.
I am an evolved woman, but the only emotion I felt was expressed by poor Christian Bale and that is not a meme nor a statement on race and gender.
I fell into this originally via a USAF prank on the IMDB I was trolling along with various other people for Batman Begins. I used to post there as balehead. It makes some sense now.

Complete sense. I have to go give my dad his breakfast as our far from ill used housekeeper (who is family and for whom I have to provide a pension for taking care of my grandmother and us) is away. She doesn’t like it if I mess around in her kitchen. And keeps trying to feed me fish. Good luck putting her in an exploitative Gita Gambhir bullshit doc about Hindu Supremacists who exploit household help..
It would be kinda funny if they went to her..
As funny as representing me as a housecat at the NIH. I demand a reprieve from this awful diet!
I love reading and what embittered me most (common sense again)..Troy Farah is cool actually (that is called a schizophrenic tangent!!!) was not being able to enjoy a simple recreation in Ol’jfz9580m’s life that doesn’t involve mind altering substances.
While shilling this trash as marijuana law reform etc.
I hope that doctor helps with aborting this and he can heart Josh Hawley in his own home..better than Rand Paul. Prof Lecun is cool. If you are doing crazy shit understand human nature as Matt Stoller recommends.
And China is awful.
They would totally out the disreputable, non-artist and non-blogger who will risk libel forever more, in prison. At least I stayed out of prison and got my resources destroyed by this disgrace.
Okay..I have to start work today at least.

This is just beginning and it will be as ugly for many as it was for me. My mom is not a disposable..Next up! All of Ol’jfz9580m’s mildly cringey private behaviors.
Again coupled with a draconian criminal lawsuit to drive home why humping Retractionwatch and excusing data science and ai misconduct on this scale is a bad idea.

Incidentally since I am filing serious misconduct allegations against Google, I emailed Prof Hennessy who I can buy is some sort of human computer and so I forgave him.
But not the rest. Especially women who were in this while being wealthy and stupid.

[jfz9580m]

6. Part 6: EarlG, elad and DU

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No part of this is a joke or a game. I take things at face value largely because I do not go to shady websites and channels.

If DU did not exist I would be writing diatribes on paper. I value the few rare people and things I like they are rare and not produced herding.

This experiment in the wild has angered me intensely. And my govt and state govt and possibly some day yours will hear from me.

No need to panic. Except with these locals who orchestrated this and used my street and these corrupt hospitals, tech cos who I promise will be held criminally liable since you won’t bring that trashy tech and sports culture here and change the meanings of “janitor”, “homelessness” etc.

To be a unique and respectable human takes resources and effort. I will not let these parasites destroy a specific type of Indian middleclass with real stem jobs like mine was - I am not unemployed - I won’t look for work where such substandard norms are accepted.

And for invasion of my home and street and causing the death of my mom, criminal liability in non-negotiable. SIL’s stunt won’t work.

14.5 years of illicit human experimentation and torture are no laughing matter.
I laugh because I am myself again and pushing back harshly.

I am sure I will prevail in this case. You know why? I compromised repeatedly and when I did, it wasn’t just bad for me. It was bad for eveyone connected to me and even for the creeps. That holographer who was a serial sexual harasser with a Lockheed Martin contract could have tried to think. But he did not.

Now I will be bashing everything extensively because it is not a joke that across the board your collective human stupidity killed my mom and ruined my resources and life.

But I am indebted to EarlG (much as I am to my medical mj co and this vegan lady and the few people who tolerate me. My parents were public servants who had healthy pensions and benefits and they are frugal and we have land. That is why I could buffer this with only such indignity as was forced by this shameless, largely Indian crowd, in 2 countries).

They do not represent any Indians I would know. I am not colorblind etc. But we are largely all middleclass douchebags safely away from war zones. What are you always so aggrieved about? And you force scripts that I despise.

But I would never offend or insult EarlG and elad above all, but broadly DU and I thoroughly disapprove of these methods.

I march to the beat of my own drummer. I like Indian DUers. This was none of it planned and designed. I have picked up on patterns here thinking much to paraphrase Willie Keith in The Caine Mutiny - another book my late mom - read to me, mostly thinking reflexively “How would I think if I were a fool?”
It was the hardest shit work I ever had and society will broadly hear from me for a long time about it!

Because ai is trash. But so is this type of desperate human behavior. No respect or understanding of the past. Forcing disgusting connections - 2014 was the worst - male or female, I met no one I would not avoid. Except for one Prof from a small liberal arts college far from California.

These methods are an outrage and abomination and an insult to honest science, honest humans, any honest labor and intelligence everywhere.
You have not tapped into a deep vein of lyrical prose. It is not perceived. It is how you think. Don’t argue with me.

But regardless, I would never insult the left, EarlG, elad, skinner, anyone I follow online on the left by using this to bash their beliefs. In fact they have helped me and as someone who is more a lurker than a participant and not in your creepy ways (I am just curious and okay not entirely to see how it could help earth. It is like a shameful secret or something. So impractical! I tried to conceal that more than drugs and being a lousy scientist, since in your worlds if a greenwashing scam is not tacked on, it is wildly loony).

But this is a personal emergency for me and after years of clunky mechanical crap Ol’jfz8580m has decided to take matters into her own hands.
Coupled with a muscular criminal and malpractice complaint I know is essential to check dangerous parasitic growth.

This should be a cautionary tale, whatever muscle you have “bro” (presumably..Is that jot your language 🌽 ?
I am not your ventriloquist’s dummy just because I have sensitive senses and can unfortunately now pick you up all the way over here.
It was all entirely malicious.

I won’t deny one thing I said I did. I have at no point..not once..used racial or other slurs. I have referenced male and female reproductive organs etc. Just going with the flow.

That is called acclimation! I adapt and acclimate!
But I am nice and only pick on people my own size.

But I will not turn EarlG/elad’s message board into a Republican propaganda outlet anymore than weigh in on democratic politics.
I try to only risk libel/slander and defamation charges and even there I only attempt to make people look ridiculous where they are having a horrendous effect on drug policy and are truly worth ridiculing male or female.

Do you know how painful it was to try to reinvent Ol’jfz9580m, the wildly unpopular online troll as some sort of nice Indian lady?

And there continues to be no permission to use this to make a nuisance of yourself. I follow community rules because the internet is not real and this is a community not a toy and it is really nice of EarlG. I remember Dave from way back.

You had to screw me over a lot to misrepresent Ol’jfz9580m. I am unpredictable, but never a bully or jerk. I am for this going out where identifying info is redacted or transmitted as needed and no more.
I am not actually a troll. I am not interested in anything you bring to me I would, like the only Current Affairs writer I dislike and have little respect for Yasmin Nair’s hero, throw around yelling “Its rubbish! Its garbage!”

I don’t like these methods. This better not be low paid gig work. The damage done to my home and street will need to be fixed at the expense of these companies and the parts of the state that were bullish about this shit.

Who do you think the average honest and intelligent householder who doesn’t want influencer creeps and a race to the bottom back? Without a Facebook bs thing.
I am on DU. That is a compliment to DU.

Not these local creeps who will be reported. They can go through the NIH or the state but they won’t get away with it. This whole thing was real. How stupid are you?

I was not sure it was till recently since these sledgehammer trickle east infonomics are weird and well..I don’t like this sentence (not a double entendre).

The use of language by these humans and these machines disgusted me. I still despise David Brooks and David Frum.
The sole area where I unabashedly take liberties with bashing people is this ship jumpers who jump solely to save their rears and then want to take over the place.

I have never jumped ship. May have sunk a few erroneously..
People who behave like that are jerks and hated.
It is not strategic to have a policy of only attacking public figures and celebrities, with appropriate levels of caution. The caution is mostly from reflexive adaptation to men like my dad. One’s parents are influences one cannot and should not ignore when they were as supportive and cool as mine were.

He is conservative - he is a military vet. But he is really sharp and a good man and way more feminist in any real sense than most.

I am an animal rights supporter for factory farmed animals and to a lesser extent wild animals (not much interest in companion animals) because I am sensitive to unhappiness and humiliation where it isn’t thoroughly deserved, but left or right merely for being a little annoying in one’s views. When you are just an internet denizen. We are all people and many of you go around cheerfully getting posts removed, which is new to me.
It is different when you are in the media or an influencer. You have a responsibility and you failed. Sadly I do not follow the right enough to fair and balance my bashing. That is itself why I am on the left. And by now I would worry about any spyware that is not already riddling my spaces that I will be taking to experts to identify the origins.
Haaarumph. Putting creepy spyware on Ol’jfz9580m’s comp. I never expected to end up entrapping these many all sided scammy creeps in all probability.

I only try to ingratiate Hawley so the GOP does not attack the organic small, wild web part of the web that is DU. All said and done, he is an elected official. Democracy is the only system I recognize.
This was mainly about total deregulation and lack of accountability in tech.

I am sure I can prevail because this is not overnight thing. Nice instincts throughout btw. Where is this deceitful and brainless Calvinism from? Have none of you met any real scientists, doctors or talented humans?
This only worked because of the old NIH.

And I am civil about Prof Bhattacharya. Though Ol’jfz9580m is civil but not easy to control.

That was pure hell. I was so dejected, but I am glad I am myself and this specific unique human world thing is falling into place.

Trying to con Ol’jfz9580m. Completely brainless. Ol’jfz9580m went damn near ..not insane..but like a dreary robot trying to find a script for some situation from hell that cannot force Ol’jfz9580m to fit its stupid vision.

It will be forced to fit Ol’jfz9580m. I mean the criminal lawsuit will happen as will the medical malpractice and misconduct targeting private sector cos, not the NIH.
I better post a song as an olive branch to Prof Hennessy. I sent him some rude emails which he should recognize as a scientist as less scary unnatural behavior than what went before. But still not good. That guy Nir Eyal is an idiot and continuous media are garbage.

I am generally suspicious of music but it seems popular with people and Beyonce/Taylor Swift/whatever a Bad Bunny is (shut up and sing!) aside, not earth destroying in any obvious ways above the usual. But the only music I want in my home is wildlife rhythms uncorrupted by anthropogenic noise. Go ruin your own home. The street traffic, lights etc will end badly..I said I filing a criminal case. Continuing this way will ensure it escalates. I saw how this goes. I don’t like being taken advantage of.

It is ending I think..Yay!
I won’t back down an inch or hold back any criticism. I actually liked my postdoc school. These fuckers soured that.
That is the reality of bullshit connections as shallow human or ai as it gets.
And I misunderstood nothing.
💪
I follow signs a safe distance awayfrom DU, Yasha, Ketcham, Evgenia, Nandita Bajaj, Matt Stoller and off and on even Current Affairs, but that is a more mixed bag..
So nice to get my own damn home back.

I hope the top creeps do hard time much like Elizabeth Holmes. Trying to scam and intimidate and coerce Ol’jfz9580m!
That is stupidity..
These people will not only face consequences. They will be held up as models for stupidity and crassness forever.
Now I must finally go work,

I will keep writing as a second chore. Its aim is to clear a path for Ol’jfz9580m to kick out all worthless earth and brain destroying properties from Ol’jfz9580m’s properties and reinforce good science and governance only etc.

[jfz9580m]

7. Part 8: Critical Thinking

So this will be aborted wherever it touched my life between 2009 and the present. This is not the right way to do things.

There is no escaping a criminal probe and lawsuit in this creepy little communist state I am in in India at this point. Any hospital/tech company/ai company etc that was involved and used the airspace above my home/the two other properties, contiguous areas and the street for traffic studies, street mapping, homecare, ads, nudge theory studies (I will explain in another post) etc, will face harassment, psychological torture, attempted commodification and exploitation of human life, medical malpractice and misconduct in data science, the tech sector broadly.

Who else remains to be seem.

Further with the not actionable stuff that was still a huge strain, there is no need for this type of mindboggling crassness and stupidity. You can train your nurses and doctors without sticking cameras everywhere mildly to not gossip and violate patients’ personal boundaries whether it is data or personal space. There are simple ways to stop misconduct and malpractice and without it being those mindless sexual harassment corporate seminars. And no. I am filing a criminal case and posting this online on du.
It is fucking missing the point.

You know I usually feel really stupid in science-physics, math, biology (I am a total duffer at it and it is one of the most challenging sciences - it is so damn vast), chemistry (just no..that field is too hard..analytical chemistry is okay..).
But in this period of exposure to the private sector, I realized I am bright compared to these people.
I needed help from the left I could find online..mostly men. I am the MeToo woman in this and it was..it was so stupid. I will always remember the stupidity..I have not seen these many sleazy, brainless, self serving humans cooperating together to produce the ugliest and most useless scam imaginable. These days I have started laughing again and relaxing. Man..that was so fucking awful and in both countries..
I used to get angry, but now I think I am out.

I am easy-going. That is what makes this so outrageous.

This was a horrible experience. There was one Indian data scientist in my last lab whom I in retrospect liked. My oncologist is cool. If any of these idiots came through a local channel-do not tell me it is all dark web or Pakistan etc.

Or Elon Musk or Palantir. Do not do things that insult my intelligence. They are awful, but they are new. This was mostly Google and Facebook and Tata. In the random nightmare parts I met a sexual harasser who may have had a contract from the local state. He was so fucking dumb. He had the quality of that thing in Guildea. And huge complexes. All about colonization and how he is dark skinned and discriminated against. I used to dully listen to it like a good American returned brainless liberal, ignoring my gut instincts that this was a sleazy and indecent man. My dad took an instant dislike to him. Oddly there was a man there (whom he didn’t like) who was also as dark-skinned to whom I took a liking. He was cool. Everyone else there was a nightmare, but this man was getting a PhD under this creep and I liked him and he had no such complexes.
Yes ..sometimes bigotry works so people hate you for things you cannot control, including being organically unable to embrace certain political orientations.
I grew up as a military brat and when I was young I was very..I had an Indian military man’s daughter’s politics. And my mom’s Green and animal friendly and generally compassionate instincts. People can dislike Arundhati Roy etc and still have innate left instincts that are not being tapped into. My mom liked Medha Patkar and Jean Dreze. She didn’t like bullshitters and I don’t like people who swing between stoking divisions more nor insipidly and cluelessly forcing a type of brainless harmony, with an undertone of forcing your anti-abortion and anti-family planning or sobriety and coercive psychiatry and illicit testing and observation type of religiosity.

I respect Pastor Marian Budde and the BroadView Church as in the spirit of Jesus Christ. My ophthalmologist is a Christian. I don’t know him well, but he is the type of person Ol’jfz9580m instinctively turned into a human being around even in the hell years. I like his son too. Who looked mildly alarmed the last time I went there.
And I haven’t gotten new glasses since…lol..damn you all.


Ol’jfz9580m is getting out Right Fucking Now (DU humor), before Elon Musk and Palantir etc. entrench on the American side of this. I had to lie through my teeth to endure Google, Microsoft, Tata, Netflix, Amazon, AirTel, Apple, SBI and Facebook. I just don’t have it in me for this same hell now in this phase.
Ol’jfz9580m is exerting herself!

As for tech cos, I would not allow Reliance Industries anywhere near me. My dad uses their services. I would not attack a techie at Reliance unless he was a creep or she was a sleazebag (real world statistical knowledge! I do have serious criticisms about some of the ways in which a type of liability centric language came to represent social justice. That is why these braindead managers and lawyers care. They have that cynical a view of workplace harassment etc because of some entitled douchebag who is offended. That is the worst effect. That they simultaneously like my last employer which was so disgusting and which is why it will be facing misconduct and malpractice allegations targeting the legal people from back then and the psychiatric dept and whoever was in charge of that disgusting “bioreactor model”-hyperlibertarian, sexist in serious ways (do you really need an explanation for why that was a hostile, demeaning and invasive work environment? And I am easy going. Which was then a reason to tarnish me-Ol’jfz9580m! An individual much beloved - by Ol’jfz9580m..still..that totally counts..You guys do need a less nightmarish culture that knows what things really mean offline. And don’t steal my insights-hard won by years of hell, if you were not me. These are totally Ol’jfz9580m’s insights. I lived through a uniquely nightmarish experience you couldn’t begin to imagine when coddled into this hell which I was just tossed into without a paddle and seriously absolutely no meaningful support. I learnt from it. But it was harsh).

They treat their techies horribly and drive them hard. All for what? Some worthless scammy ai, bullshit cottage industries of scam “research” these local creeps would shill?

I have a lot of negative feedback. Since I was mainly in academia (and with a fraudulent type of laughably sleazy and callous “woke mental health concern” and equally sleazy work copping that was to its right), it is inaccurate to portray that as a place where historically right wing worldviews prevail. They are definitely not left or liberal except the actual scientists who do not talk much and neither have that sad Peter Thiel bogus academic’s never ending meninist grievance complex nor the excruciatingly stupid language that managerial types sell as..Ketcham covered it.

I saw an article years ago and the peak of this stupidity: Justine Sacco, Tim Hunt, Amy Cooper (the MeToo stuff was real for the most part. I generally believe and support women focusing on the high priority genuinely screwed over as I was and isolated, introverted women like me would find it harder with this mobbing.
In the real world, if as I have seen so far you continue to behave as shallowly as you do online, that is a problem. I will admit it never really agreed with that style of left. Which doesn’t change the deep rationales for being left. I like Yasha Levine because he is deeply compassionate. That is relatable).
But this article quoted the type of white male I used to have sneaking sympathy for. They were renaming manholes in Berkeley personholes..well no..maintenance holes. This man who was a carpenter I think said “Is this really the most important issue?”. It was 2016 or so.
And in 2026, with Roe v Wade laid to waste and so much more, it is hard to not conclude that that bullshit played a real role in driving a perception of academia, the left etc that is not just untrue (except where it is..not people I knew..not even the most annoying people I met..actually I guess they weren’t precisely annoying..they certainly wouldn’t be like this).

But this shit that if glossed over hastily- there is nothing wrong with learning from mistakes - that is evolution.
The way to respond to encroaching levels of surveillance, in addition to kicking it out wherever it is not the legitimate parts needed for national security, for cyber security, is to use it to clean up all the shit in your ways. Or double down and commit to them. But not where it is in my spaces or life.


This is an exercise in critical thinking. I am hastily exiting the old thing.

And locally, I do not want this. It has to be aborted as I see fit. But it has to be cleaned up properly. There is no way around complaints. But if you have a case that I would be sympathetic to, you will have to go via the few people or spaces I engage with and will now organize.

I shall state my case in detail, sketching out various issues with perceptions of the world that embattles and endangers even reasonable and honest people like me.
And it is never..0!!!! No ♾️!!! It is not this complicated.
I learnt a lot from that because it was pure hell.
Last week I think was the last week of hell.

I have decided there is no option but seriously draconian pushback. But I remain kindly Ol’jfz9580m though I feel every damn thing that made me select, of all things Ol’Orlick

And at another time despite this copious explanation, a type of paranoid person (it is understandable if you work with abused women..but then you have to realize that to a hammer everything looks like a nail).

Much like to Ol’jfz9580m sitting in isolation listening with increasing indignation about chatter about being fed to kraken etc eventually…I thought..why should I be fed fo kraken. I want to be kraken! lol.
I will draft some more guidelines and notes.

I am freestyling this. But at least the mean understanding some, exactly where is less clear, that is not the stuff I am pressing charges over, there is clearer mutual understanding is my hope.
Let this such as it is be one of the less conflict filled things.

I started interacting with some people I like or seeing them at least recently. My doctors here are cool..and none of the physical health doctors ever pushed useless stuff.
Psychiatry will have to contend with the misconduct and malpractice allegations that were..to use a favorite word of the Google creeps..”inevitable” when you shill scams like Woebot (that thing deserved to die..it represented perfectly the sheer brainlessness of Stanford Psychiatry. They cannot sue me for libel given that I am filing misconduct and malpractice allegations against a distant affiliate of theirs).
This will be aborted and I will need to be extremely harsh especially about the psychiatry and addiction bullshit and ai forcing and monitoring and the worthless agents.
It is all going to be really bad for Google and the private equity owned hospital that almost certainly was involved and the hospital where my mom died which was just greedy by then.

The very limited and select new things I will allow if any of this is salvageable subject to draconian environmental, privacy and consent guidelines I establish. This is my home:
It is a military veteran’s home.
You don’t just come here and “Duuuur ..I am with Indigenous CreepTechnology Inc”..lol..there was a funny Indian data scientist I met ..at the time I was indignant. Lol..

We have a saying here “Arre bhai dhung say karo”. I know Hindi! I barely passed it in 10th standard..60 something..I did well in english, math and general science!
So you don’t just come in here with the worst and most trashy Google and Facebook Microsoft Reliance Tata and Indigenous CreepApp NSO group Blackstone Inc and try to be pathetically funny or serious when..

I liked this one vegan lady and the marijuana people. They all have actual high (pun unavoidable) produce without some sad athletic celebrity, influencer, Tollywood/Mollywood creep and some disastrously stupid “anthropologist”. There is a sexual harasser called Alencier who is “anti-imperialist”. I swear, if I was a conservative those are the people I would amplify as “the left”.

And these disgraceful ship jumpers like Mitt Romney (I am a solid Hawley fan! I hate TikTok)- it is a joke EarlG. Another criminal street creep who fails to get it. The last time it was a creep at 2:50 pm when I was dubiously considering throwing a peace offering about the

Whoever could give me the names of all these harassers locally without a quid pro quo when they were not even involved will be happy to the extent that no one would like these guys. And because they are these really creepy guys in a corrupt and shittily administered communist state, they are probably communist in some cases. But the centre had to know.
And whichever side it was-you can ve sure they will all face harassment charges at this point.

Or what future in real ways..not important shit like personholes..what future do women have in this state and in my hometown which is my forever home. I may travel, if some not low rent job in my field was available.
Ol’jfz9580m bends to no one!

I actually am glad I came back. I feel at home and I will have done this state a real service not a bullshit conflict free one and at least done my part to communicate left critical thinking.

You can always change wrt minor stupidity but not if you don’t get it.
And “Main tumhaari behen nahi hoon samjhe. Main ek Mawaali hoon! 🤺” what is a mawaali?
From the contexts I have heard it used in it seemed to fit..lol..No..look, I am not a pill.
But you are not going to just come in and pull shit like this and it cannot be wished away.
Lol..no..no games and celebrities and bollywood and web crap.
Wherever this ends up Ol’jfz9580 is a person all shall learn to fear! None shall pass 🤺!

But i was starting to seriously feel like the Black Knight after I lost my mom..
So..don’t force your views after all this.
You will be the worse for it where unlike these street harassers and the avaricious, incompetent and negligent hospital clowns when my mom died, the shit that stalked me at the grocery store when i was nursing my mom.

This started feeling like that time.
I will work through this and based on what I saw, my slim tool set can beat this Theranos style incompetence plus grandiosity and too many people who spin cover up etc

This will be aborted and I assure you I will be fair but strict and harsh as needed. I operate under only the direction of Ol’jfz9580m.
Lol…

Except as perhaps an academic exercise in critical thinking for web-addled humans re the real world and the net (this experience forced me to use the web. As much as I love DU and hope something decent that is not a police case results, that again is why i hate Si Valley), none of this is relevant to US electoral politics except the vaguest left-right stuff. And I keep it neutral and focused on honesty etc.
I don’t bash the left more. I bash the “left” which probably took more liberties since I am left, Don’t forget that all the bad actors used to claim to be liberal like that sleazy Pichai.

[jfz9580m]

8. Part 9: Ol'jfz9580m Lays down the Law

I shall edit the writing in the earlier posts to make them more legible. And clean up my journal.
Tomorrow I would like to finally start normal life, but with this chore a part of it finally.

I can say that I am finally sure that a lot of stuff was and is real and as I thought at first, totally deregulated, harassing etc. It is unambiguous misconduct, malpractice, previously psychological torture (calumning a sane person’s sanity is experienced as torture; implicitly assailing an honest human’s character is as well; and extensive isolation after confusing info and in a milieu where save for Yasha Levine, Chris Ketcham, Andy Nikiforuk and a few people like that, the communication barrier for someone of my views is clearly hard to overcome when even the sciences and medicine had so many of these fucking assholes I am reporting. I grudgingly support the two labs - I can’t say I like those people. Who could like such assholes? Still, grudging but full support is support. Arguably it is more valuable in some ways than the kind where one may be less clear-sighted due to any actual liking rather than tolerance alone, reasoning “well okay -they are not unprincipled; they are honest and they are good scientists and in context not stupid”. Though why anyone exists in such contexts, insisting that such stupid shit is inevitable etc, beats me. But however cold I feel towards those people as humans for the most part, such as they are, they are about as acceptable as scientists of their ilk. And I hope at some point we can resolve this. So I can file malpractice and misconduct allegations against Google/the school, the city and the state, while leaving out those two labs, the two families I stayed with, the external psychiatrist/shrink, the pd counsellor and first lady from HR I met and the admin as the least daft CS type I have seen.

Here I will file complaints against the state, the city, and all the other entities (especially these street harassers, whatever else it all was).

To start the new phase of getting this trash out of my home and preparing a legitimate way to do this not these sweatshop methods full of Indians I avoid.

The Indian Govt is going to have to fix this. Obviously they knew. The state and this city I have given up on. They cannot be accessories to this. I would only be okay with Tejas Thackeray wrt the wildlife aspect. None of this ai, sensors, biometrics trash.
I am filing criminal misconduct charges.

I am the only scientist on this street and early forced participant in this garbage. I barely accepted the two labs I was in. Though the Indian data scientist in the lab was actually someone I trust. Not some yimby guy with a degree in birds, a street mapping cab driver etc.

I will file the harshest criminal charges I can and get them to stick wrt the sound engineering, all the local malpractice, traffic studies, street mapping, light and sound pollution. I will press stalking and harassment charges.
What did you think? At no point would someone who pushes back and instead goes and shits in front of Google’s cameras solemnly telling themselves “this is clearly inevitable and the future”.
Seriously prostitutes with no class. You should not need a motherfucking primer in why this shit was and is creepy and isn’t “well it is already like that! It is inevitable!”

This is being a follower or this same type will next say..Okay I will be Amish!

The way these parasitic creeps frame things is as if the shittiest creepiest most low rent implementation or nothing as they have no products, services and this is obviously not feasible.

I am not kidding around. And one solitary human brain that isn’t this..”Yes! Looks good! More! “ I really wish Prof Lecun or Prof Steve Chu…these are stupid people and these gate kept narratives that..
Steve Chu would understand. He is actually intelligent. Very uncommon at Stanford..where the dumbest fucking followers, frauds and a collection of insane Calvinists who embrace miserable working conditions for unclear reasons..yeah. 15 years ago there was no reason to be that creepy and sleazy and now here it is not viable.
So the Indian Govt will have to start to clean this up.

I will raise hell saying that with the involvement of some corrupt nris with no pride and no standards and the creepiest and most corrupt or clueless locals an abomination was rolled out in a military veteran’s home (and Indian influencers and our trashy press better get that Ol’jfz9580m is not a person to mess with. I do not suffer fools).
Henrik Mouritsen, Madhav Gadgil, Peter Hore, Tejas Thackeray are people one can trust on the most important aspect - the earth sciences.
Prof Ryan Williams and Prof Yan Lecun are the only profs I have seen in CS who did not immediately make me reach for pepper spray as is my usual reaction to what passes for a computer scientist these days. My onc is fine for the medical part. The best shrink I had was my first shrink in 2009 who prescribed Adderall and I am filing medical malpractice against my last employer over IRB free, informed consent free (to be clear there is no consent and no means no..I tried to humor my mentor then. Today that would just be dishonest feedback

I will push for the most draconian charges for this “boys will be boys” shit. Don’t orchestrate such rot.

I am okay with these posts with some clean up. Abortion ahoy! This was a rape like methodology and obviously not viable however much tragedy of the commons logic, plausible deniability and torturing data to fir bad models is
Its a conflict of interest to attack someone’s private habits and coping strategies for this modern reality with bs about “addiction!”

And whether it is optogenetics, magnetoreception, quantum computing etc, with an original mistake this undemocratic, crass and brainless…no.
It needs to be aborted, taken for malpractice, misconduct, psychological torture and criminal harassment charges filing.
This is my first step toward that.
Now tomorrow I can start working on my paper and start exercising, eating well etc again.
I have organised this some.
This last Friday was the first time in years, after I decided to file a criminal complaint that I finally felt at peace.

[jfz9580m]

9. Part 10: Corruption, Soft and Hard Force, Upton Sinclair and Sinclair Lewis

I have never actually gotten past the first few chapters of Babbitt or the first page or so of “The Jungle”, but I can quote from the internet with the best! That is almost as good as reading a book right? No? Oh well..
These are educational, insightful, inspirational (a bridge too far?), aspirational little life lessons with no undertone of vicious spite that the (probably braindead if not a DUer - if you can get past MIRT and EarlG/elad okay..that is why this is a community that has TOS I support as a non-American who mostly comments on creeps not directly American politics) reader -quite possibly a corrupt shrink or scammy technologist or garbage ai..lol..-might pick up on.
What vicious spite? Paranoid much?

Just because I explicitly say the vicious spite is real doesn’t mean it is! I could be another one of these boneheads, I mean elite Machiavellian strategists, who try to sell the dumbest people anywhere on the notion that you can exploit truthiness (I came up with that word! All me! Oh wait! I am not a criminal, thieving piece of garbage ai built by a Google or Facebook parasite with no talent, but lots of ties with politicians and industrialists who cuts deals with corrupt universities and hospitals owned by Blackstone…artistic license! I snarl traffic because I am a sleazy attention whore without a life! And Google approving of my worthless “art” rather than getting on the phone with their lawyers to ask how to evade criminal liability is a sign that I am not crazy but authentic! Steven Colbert came up with that!
Hey I have an idea! Like my creepy phone service AirTel! Why don’t we repackage 20 year old rants by Steven Colbert/Christian Bale/random news articles and internet posts as some sort of sleazy meme and use it to champion “women entrepreneurs”!)

Where was I? Yeah..
So here is the deal..an authentic! Real! person who had some sort of respectable existence they were falling at on multiple fronts is not going to work with some creeps to make internet art and come to a table full of such disingenuous conversation that you would have to have a mental disorder to participate in. That may even be lawyer recommended for the Google and Facebook creeps.
I am sorry! I was influenced into scamming and robbing society and trying to take random women hostage while telling them it is for their own mental health and not at all suggesting that a marijuana (and Modafinil! From a small mom and pop pharmacy with no ties to any lf this but who cares! The all seeing (creepy) eye knows! This is benevolent!) user should be grateful.
And a Hindu Fascist like Ol’jfz9580m is obviously oppressing various salt of the earth communist friendly corrupt businesses like the ones that laid waste to the Western Ghats

I am better at balance than Fox News! I don’t bother with fairness. Fuck em all. Except for the people I alerted last week or ones with no connection to this bullshit at all, YOYO! Like I was! Poor oppressed, slandered, bullied, traumatized 🤭 Ol’jfz9580m. She has battered woman syndrome! From constant worries about

I am not slamming the left casually. I don’t pay attention to the right. Most of us have some pragmatic instincts and some instincts that determine our politics. I am not conservative. It is up to conservatives to figure out how to deradicalize and educate their side. The most I can do is strain EarlG’s patience by agreeing that TikTok should be banned and that “defund the police”, “open borders” are terrible slogans and that I do not agree that left cancel culture is imaginary, because I don’t buy that this shit is “left” that you see online.

The most left leaning people I met aside from Yasha/Ketcham and the usual suspects proudly displayed as proof that Ol’jfz9580m is not a total misanthrope were hard scientists and doctors. They are rarely right leaning since science has a reality based bias (I came up with that! I am ChatGPT! No Steven Colbert again..I attribute! I have ethics!)
Behold thd hypocrisy of the reproductive organ based slurs of the loathesome RetractionWatch (probably..I just remember them as this thing scientists grovel to in order to convince various bullies they are honest. The ORI is free to directly contact Ol’jfz9580m. RetractionWatch/the internet/that ass Kent Anderson/Russell Poldrack (full coverage! Fair and balanced in every dispute! Also the safest position! Safety!) are invited to go fuck themselves.
After all that bullshit about plagiarism (often targeting international students, pocketing whose tuition is a good idea, but simple mentoring to explain concepts unfamiliar to foreign students without a scammy internet shilling worldview as well..we are all way too connected..it is a disease at this point..DU is the only internet part I support and old school..plain text is fine by Ol’jfz9580m..
Yasha Levine had a very funny piece ..funny thing about Yasha ..without any scammy “Google telepathy!!!” I know exactly how he, Evgenia and Chris Ketcham, Ed Zitron etc think..why would one need anything but the most basic and utilitarian phone and net tech for that? I can find people by typing in topics of interest..yeah I guess you had to start out with a personality and some self other than…what is every other creep out there doing/thinking or shilling? With the smallest seeds you can find in the real world I can observe and see things.
Why do I need a pervert soup of information that is mostly..Weeeeeeeeee..weeeee are all scammy, stupid, egotistical etc?

But they are overworked …the scientists and doctors (they are all probably unemployed increasingly so it isn’t sycophantic anymore to extend real support)..and like any of who see these cancers not as an opportunity!
To (like Rush Limbaugh) bloviate into the void casting truckloads of asparagus in all directions, risking libel/slander and defamation without being clear that this is a precursor to a criminal lawsuit since I think that only that will wake these people up.
And after you lose your mom and find out that the hospital you always tried to convince yourself is not totally sleazy (competent and decent doctors..and too mild..why are all the nicest and most competent people so mild? I liked Tejas Thackeray. I used to look at Madhav Gadgil and think..yeah that might not work..my vegan lady friend rescued me and anyone who calls her a “female entrepreneur” is a prick. We need a new language. Crooked Timber got it and then something loathesome called Reid Hoffman Media Studies..the entire internet is a parasite now..this will be grabbed and defanged by ai so some person who writes on a thing called Shamblog can use it to spread bogus ai safety humblebrags for these pathetic shitware agents..and all sorts of idiots will say “ooooooo..ai is so dangerous”).
Where was I?

So this is hopefully something perceived as sane human written and a precursor to a criminal lawsuit here in India and medical malpractice and misconduct in human subject research allegations and harassment charges over the use of a private citizen’s residence in India coupled with constant intimidation, coercion, stalking and bribery attempts.

I wrote to my medical marijuana company and my vegan lady friend and expressed full support in case this all-sided scam tried to lure them or worse cut into their honest profits the way Substack etc do bogus white hatting/crypto etc and keep information from flowing so people cannot collaborate and cooperate seriously and honestly.

The Sinclair Lewis quote can be paraphrased to point out that when corruption with autocratic instincts becomes more current, it will shill worthless therapies, space grabs and finally harassment as care, community and probably art. Democritization!
What is so left about always failing in the face of overt corruption and thuggery?
How is it not distasteful to see what is clearly written by an angry and harassed woman who copes because some of us cannot be easily victimized..that too by a collection of mindnumbingly stupid people?
I am lucky this is such a stupid society. Otoh I would not be in this position else.

They are going to destroy the public sector in India and jobs like my parents’ and force thid trash labeling it “development” or “uplifting women” , a teaching moment!
No..i am pressing charges as a marijuana user.


I can go to the local police right away and explain to them about my marijuana use and how it helped me and the only racket is not coming from delivery boys/basic services/my
specific 2 ayurvedic doctors/my MJ company but something from inside trying to take society hostage to sell a surveillance state as the new form of existence.
WE!
“I sexually harassed lots of women and committed fraud and misconduct and knowingly participated in this trash! Ol’jfz9580m was kind of a slacker who used pot and inundated every available digital tool with confusing drivel for 15 years! We! We are all in this together!

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10. Part 10: Ol'jfz9580m produces Art!

I used to alarm my poor mother. She thought my sleazy former employer would send me to prison for sending them the cartoon version of this (some image I found online of a guy who looked like that Bob Genius guy extending a middle finger)..I fully agree with that today, but then I felt histrionic.
Here is the same exact thing. But that is my finger! And see…those are sanitary pads!
Shows like “Big Mouth”, probably those loathesome Judd Apatow movies and the internet have informed me that long discussions of one’s periods, breast feeding, bowel movements, temple entry for women etc are these high priority issues for women from the left just as contributing to “female entrepreneurs ” with bullshit jobs (they didn’t add that part) is what the nice people on the right (both no doubt agreeing that a straitjacket any which way) recommend at the cost of my daily peace so this worthless trash can grow.

Well this talk of art gave Ol’jfz9580m an idea. I believe that sadsack Jonathan Haidt’s wife makes “menstrual art” as he writes shitty tech commentary.
Only Yasha Levine/Evgenia Kovda and Chris Ketcham write worthwhile commentary on anything..
Sovietski Yah! Nastikoff bah!
Seriously though..that is why they don’t have a slot with the ugly NYT famous for downplaying Hitler and modern scourges. And why Substack can use stuff sleazily (Eminem would comment about the prostitutes at Substack: “Someone mentioned me!”)
The projection of the types of people who do this as a representation of human thought/behavior etc would be self-loathing and cynical. Prof Hennessy (damn him) aside who but such people would work at Google? Or any of it?


I remember thinking about Haidt and that lady..now that is a match made..somewhere..and as an elegant lady I do not say things like metaphorical brothel or whorehouse. Most of our “elite” are not elite.
Even Current Affairs calls these Wynn-Williams types “elite”.
I would argue that ever having been stupid enough to try to pretend that “Facebook will connect the world!” Something I saw immediately as some kind of scam by people who like to waste time online.
Ol’jfz9580m wasted tonnes of time looking at trash online. Ol’jfz9580m never thought it was anything else.
And then one day these parasitic whores show with Amazon pee bottle austerity copping you (open science! Dilligence!) and Facebook/Google/Blackstone bullshit (healthcare!) and take Ol’jfz9580m hostage. And then probably use Ol’jfz9580m as a model of some foul thing called GladOS and blackmailing agents.
There is no blackmail. I am going to the authorities. Well the not corrupted and tainted by this ones..there is no negotiation..and I tried to warn the public finally overtly and that is this and I will press charges. (The art think is mockery of these rancid douchebags)

What disease is this of hardcore insanity about real science coupled with calling any grifter who can figure out how to grift by at least metaphorically blowing these criminals in tech first and then grifting from it with fraudulent whistleblowing and snark after?
Ol’jfz9580m may not be morally bankrupt, but at this rate she will be if not ever bankrupt strained more and more. I have to go work. Fuck this shit..I will serenade Prof Hennessy (huge fan of his instincts! His OnlyFans page has only one fan! Ol’jfz9580m! I don’t think he will sue me for libel. Actually Priya Ramani could help. She was sued by that pervert MJ Akbar. She seemed okay.. But Tejas was not very internetty and my views on internet, connection and communication are best left copiously spewed. Except DU. I support EarlG mostly for being trustworthy without idiotic levels of pointless verification. I am wary of people who seem sociable beyond the sort of Fight Club level but with the internet still gettign the info that is needed to understand and check this so only the creeps who want this have to enable it. It won’t happen here. But since this did happen, a criminal lawsuit I file is the only forward and I don’t kayfabe and I learnt from these things.

Dr.Fauci was elite. Symbolically he is only reason Ol’jfz9580m tolerated this..at all..
My last mentor and his families and a male scientist who for unclear reasons..yeah what is with real scientists who didn’t show these Google etc creeps the door? He wasn’t even that mild. Why do people buy into these computer creeps?

Well I cannot afford that..Rufous treepie (12:28 pm ist. I should record these on BirdNet, the only software I trust completely) aside from ImageJ which is NIH.

But Dr.Fauci is excessively civilized. Ol’jfz9580m is not civilized. I tried being civilized around barbarians and there is no point. What is the point in more talk except to send a clear, unadulterated, non kayfabe message to these bullies, perverts, parasites and their dupes I cannot do anything about.
Jesus Christ was crucified because he was too nice. I am not nice and I see no point in going to prison, getting groped, crucified etc.
Who does that serve? What message does it send?
I am not the DU version of whatever a Blippi is.
You want spectacles..fine? But they have to serve me and not wrt futuristic reputation management to ♾️ because you much like your shit ai have no idea what anything is..
Yan Lecun is the sole ai scientist I trust:
Sovietski Yah..Nastikoff Bah
I read that in book!
This isn’t a pile of sad internet mene fodder because a reason I like Carr and one of the main reasons for this criminal complaint and I shall viciously post them all..is I really love reading. It is my one solace and I could not enjoy even that. This isn’t prison reform or healthcare.

It is taking your employees, patients, students and postdocs hostage because you cut deals and blew some Google and Facebook creeps and parasites as admins. Not the few people I know whom I support..who..I am not Calvinistic enough for this.
I already factored in how expensive we are as a species at every point. Degrowth of junk and lies and worthless shit is my goal. This is a metaphoric cancer that has killed one human with literal cancer and I don’t want to be casualty further without muscular pushback.
Taking Ol’jfz9580m yes a cis-female who isn’t a hacker and ignores computers bare utility to Ol’jfz9580m, not the community of creep rights fans..Ol’jfz9580m is a mawaali! A hooligan! Not a camgirl with a sad podcast..lol..
I like Evgenia..she would make short work of a creep..I respect that..priya ramani too.. But I like a space between the inside and out with the least number of additional stupid people than this crowd I am metaphorically barricading in..

Anyway this is a vague comment on Jonathan Haidt:



I have to go work and I will ignore this and work and health will help me pushback viciously and file a criminal lawsuit..
When I think of the years I spent ignoring my instincts because I would seem “crazy”, “a loose cannon”, “a vapid distraction”.
As this trash lays waste to everything..
Today it is hard to look at most of the net and continue to whinge about democritization.
Democracy doesn’t mean “Stupidity Rights!”
And don’t invert that ever again with me because you fart around in California with a sad degree or not in Quantum mysticism, Mandarin and Interpretive dance..which I saw an execrable and distasteful example of
I have an imagination not the loose associations of schizophrenia.