One week sober.

[lambchopp59]

47. Compensatory mechanisms for atrocities like four nauseating years span an unhealthy spectrum

I was also heading down a self destructive path. The oddity was as a healthcare worker, I caught COVID early, so forced to stop. Exacerbated asthma for me that's never been as well moving air as previous to that. I can't go anywhere without my inhaler, and had bad side effects from the preventative stuff.
From there, became so damn busy overtime at work I didn't have much time to pay attention to that clown, and got really damn mad when I learned of the pig-ignorant shit he was doing. All while having sleepless nights from withdrawal symptoms and a new MAGA idiot of a boss playing set up to fail scenarios. Excuse the tortured, mixed metaphor I don't know how to better express: perfect storm.
Hang in there, I feel for you because you're undoubtedly suffering the worst pangs. It's worth it in the long run.