This is not good. My medication assessment has been pushed back to September 4!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Siwsan]

2. I'm hoping when I call for an appointment with the APN she won't be available for a month or so

I'll request refills. And I'm definitely going to ask my therapist to let a different provider do the assessment. The Dr. he wants me to see is, I suspect, preparing to retire.

My big fear is that I will go to the appointment with the APN, she'll be showing her usual accusatory and intimidating and indifferent attitude and I'll SNAP. I just don't think she liked me, from the start. Maybe she just doesn't like anxious patients. It seems like every time I say something, she lets me know that what I just said is stupid, wrong or ridiculous. I leave the appointment, drive straight home and crawl in to bed. Every time. They had a talk with her about my feedback and the last appointment she was, well, not worse but still had no interest in anything I had to say.

I'd love to find a new provider but that stirs up my anxiety, too. Sometimes I think I should just give up and spend what time I have left sipping on wine, eating tasty food and cuddling with my fur babies while listening to The Beatles.