Part two, the morning after....

[FirstLight]

2. yeah, read the other thread...

they told her not to take the valium with the oxy's, i had no idea that was her ONLY anxiety med. She's on several mental health meds, and autistic, but not like that's an excuse...

I am just trying to figure out my fucking life today. I am in pain, if she re-injured my fucking shoulder I had surgery on in April im gonna be pissed...hopefully it will stop hurting
she attacked me twice, first time bent me backwards over the chest freezer and onto the floor smashing the METAL kitchen can under us... second time was over the side of my dad's recliner so the arm of it hit me in the back nof the neck and shoulder.

what chaps my hide is that she refuses to understand that she had me BESIDE myself calling/messaging the dr office because she was in such bad shape, not able to sleep, shaking because the pain had HER anxiety off the charts.
When the dr office says...go to the ER, she's NOT gonna go because there's nothing they can do...she's about 2x my size so yeah...she can throw me off the deck if she wants to.

I never really felt afraid of her, we've had verbal arguments, and yeah, i often defer to her to avoid more confrontation and she gets downright MEAN when she goes off

This one is like the one that broke my back tho... I hate to see her life get ruined because I was her stability but if I let this blow over I could end up dead next...