Do You Have The Spirit Of A True Loner. 10 Signs You Were Born To Be A Loner.

[mamacita75]

25. Loner tendency

is my experience from the onslaught of people who are not authentic. I need those who are real and have depth. I never learned how to play games and thus never fit it in. My spouse is the youngest of his family as I am, and both our folks were ten years older than people our age. We have that in common plus living through the same era. He has become a hermit and I enjoy being alone, but I need people and I must do that on my own for we have no friends that would be there if something happened to either of us. We are both in the upper half of our 60s and I definitely need likeminded people to cope with what is ahead, but I lack the courage to reach out and try to find others that experience what I do. Thus, I try to make it on my own emotionally. He is not openly emotional and is trying to learn how to live with a spouse who has had undue loss and trauma (actually on both side of our sides that has built upon the years with no time for healing...the death and losses had come to fast and in numbers of 8 at once a few times. Grief compounds on grief and I struggle to keep my head above water as the sadness of struggles of grieving has been smothering to me for 2 decades without healing from one death to the next. It is overwhelming and has led me into my 'aloneness' which is the only way I am able to survive at present. I have lost my MH provider and am seeking out another but at 65 it is harder to do as I age. I really would like someone who is of my era to help me process all this loss. I am at a period of waiting for responses of my outreach for help and seem to be hanging on for dear life until finding a therapist who I am able to relate to and is from the era I grew up in at least for that commonality to relate to my present circumstances. My therapist came down with her own health crisis and has had to focus on her own health. It was a 3- and 1/2-year relationship and now she is gone. Whether she returns to practice or retires I have no idea at this time. The search for another MH provider is a foreboding endeavor that I must pursue to find a stability in my life. The few friends I have are not local and are busy and have their own lives. I was taught to not impose myself on others when I am in need of help, so I keep things to myself.