Hi, I'm actually GliderGuider, who posted below

[The_jackalope]

33. I took her to emergency yesterday at 1:00 PM

In the emergency department she was treated with IV Dilaudid and anti-nausea medication. That helped. Then they admitted her to the hospital at 2:30 am and her care fell apart. No further pain management or anti-nauseants, with no prospect of any until after 9:00 am. Plus she contracted diarrhoea from somewhere. She ended up almost as sick as she was when she went in. She is apparently too sick for the hospital to manage effectively. Even worse, they were talking about a multi-day stay which she was not prepared to accept. So she took some of her own Dilaudid and called me to bust her out. At 6:00 am I got her home. She says if she's going to suffer she wants to do it at home where she has more freedom to act, and things happen on her schedule rather than when the institution gets around to it.

She is emphatic about not allowing herself to be put under institutional control of any sort - even something as benign as a voluntary hospital admission. If she decides to leave the world, she doesn't want anything standing in her way. I am, as always, in full agreement, and as a loving partner wholeheartedly support her in determining the course of her own life - or death.

So for the moment, life goes on.

Thank you everyone for your thoughts, suggestions and best wishes. It means a lot to have this place to come to and vent.